Fortune Cookies

it’s like a deep sleep and then your mind starts to take you somewhere… anywhere… and your body begins to move uncontrollably, feeling as if you’re in a shock…an electric shock… then you wake up concluding that you were having a nightmare. falling in a cliff or falling in love… its the same difference, the exact gravity and magnitude of pain that hits you… the dream of staying up in the air forever, and ending up having a nightmare that you wish you didnt have to wake up… please, stay away from the edge of the cliff… the hell am i saying??

yes! I am happy today because I finally found my blog notebook it is almost 4 weeks I have been busy looking for this notebook, but fortunately I found this on our garrage inside the old blue box. I was writing blog since I was highschool because I want to use my leisure time to write some blog and not to the worthless thing. When I have vacant the first thing I will do is get my notebook and ballpen afterwards I wrote a blog on what keeps on my mind.

I have to go now I have still class to go! I will continue posting my blog notebook article next time!

Have a nice day to all! 

"I think that people shouldn’t be ashamed to wear their scars…and show people and even tell people ‘Look I’ve been through a lot of terrible stuff in my life’ and there’s no need to hide it. You can show people that you’ve grown through it and become so much of a stronger person because of your past….all of our scars will effect each other directly. So we’re tied together for life." 

You’re really have a special place in my heart,
where no one else may enter,
for you have inspired me to live a better each day of life.
You showed me things,
i’ve never known…
And i learned to do things i never intend to do before.
You taught me a lot of things and showed me how much i really meant to you…
And for all these things, a lot of thanks…
Inspite of all the reality that lies behind,
all my wishes,
i will always be here for you,
‘coz i only have one heart and it belongs to you…

I sit alone in the darkness.
Waiting.
Waiting for her to come back to me.
Can she hear my cries?
Can she feel my tears?
Can she sense my breaking heart?
God only knows such a fact.
How can this be that she can’t see me?
Is it because I’m sitting alone in the darkness?
I just walk past everyone as if I were invisible.
Can she see me now?
Can she see the pain she’s caused me?
Or does she just look past it?
I think I should move on, but something tells me to wait.
It’s my heart.
I’ll give her the time.
As I return to sit alone in the darkness.
Waiting.

“Is Patience Still Waiting?”

Will there ever be time enough?

Or are we just too naive?

I haven’t just given up Oh God,

I still believe Is patience still waiting?

Will I wait on my knees too?

Are you laughing at us today?

And is this just one big game?

Now cash me in while you can We never were the same Come on Will you ever have all you want?

And are we just next in line?

Don’t throw out your one good chance You only have this time.

I’ve got a lotta things to do tonight
I’m so sick of making lists
Of things I’ll never finish
I’ve lived here for the last 6mnths
Since early 2007 all my shit has been in boxes
But if I had a little more time to kill
I’d settle every little stupid thing
Yeah you’d think that I would

But I’m too tired to go to sleep tonight
And I’m too weak to follow dreams tonight
For the first time in a long time I can say
That I want to try to get better and
Overcome each moment
In my own way

I wonder if I’ll ever lose my mind
I tried hard for awhile
But then I kinda gave up
Winter is a killer when the sun goes down
“I’m really not as stubborn as I seem,”
Said the knuckle to the concrete

But I’m too tired to go to sleep tonight
And I’m too weak to follow dreams tonight
For the first time in a long time I can say
That I want to try to get better and
Overcome each moment
In my own way

I’m not saying that I’m giving up
I’m just trying not to think as much as I used to
Cause “never” is a lonely little messed up word
Maybe I’ll get it right some day
For the first time in a long time I can say
That I want to try
I feel helpless for the most part
But I’m learning to open my eyes
And the sad truth of the matter is
I’ll never get over it
But I’m gonna try
To get better and overcome each moment
In my own way

I so want to get back on track
And I’ll do whatever it takes
Even if it kills me